Relaxation ….

R laying in bed asleep on her stomach totally naked only the blanket covering her – barely. Her blonde hair over her shoulders and her arms outstretched. Her skin smooth and soft her back exposed and the part of her spine that turns up as her butt is half exposed by the covers. For the last 30 minutes I had been rubbing and massaging her back. She needed that I worked out all of R’s knots in her muscles and now she has passed out. I remember only staring at her wanting to touch her but not wake her. I only leave me hand where I stopped in the small of her back. That was years ago when we could fall asleep naked without the fear of our kids walking in on us. I still think of her in that pose and fall asleep that her back with my arm softly laying across her back hand draped ay her lower waist. I love that woman.

The time is now …

And it will be unstoppable. Welcome R to my blog for you. Tomorrow you will get a text from me with this address to read in private. I hope I do not offend you or upset you I just want to convey my love to you. If you want to start go to the Right and start with the blog post “the mission”. I LOVE YOU – HONEY.

R’s Strength

My wife cannot only balance the home and dealing with our kids, but also keep me sexually satisfied. Of course, I always want it, every time I come home from a trip it is the only thing I want. I am sure sex is the lower of the priority list for R. She has the toughest job of all. She is a great woman and a great wife. I love her and would do anything for her. Keep up the good work, I know it is hard and the kids don’t realize how well they have it, but I do and I want you to be nothing but happy.

My body…

I wish I had the body that I think that she would totally get off on. She has that for me, when I have wet dreams I dream of her – still do after all these years. I want her – I always want her. She always looks great and I want nothing more than to do things to and with that body of hers. Her legs are great and her butt I like to watch and love lay up against at night. R’s arms and hand feel good wrapped around me and makes me feel good when she pulls me and I can feel her boobs against my chest. I love to kiss her neck but I think she is afraid I will give her a hickie; which I might due to my control issues. I cannot help myself – when she kisses me I don’t want to stop I always want more - when we have sex I want more. It feels so good and she makes me feel so great I just want nothing but her. So, I started talking about me I just try and try to give her all that she wants and to be totally satisfied with me and my body, but it is so hard to stay in shape when you’re on the road with so much good food for free. I am working on it and hopefully I will be all that she dreams and fantasies over.

Toys for big kids …

Like most over adult R and I use toys to make sure she has a real good time. Hitachi is the main player -and we ran into it by accident, but once it was figured out R will consistently orgasm every time. It makes me proud that I can be a part of it to watch and feel her body as she goes. Being inside of R I can feel her muscles tighten up and is impossible for me to keep from going myself. I try to play with other toys on R; I get so turned on as I start to “work” on R. The visuals and the feelings are burned into my brain – I constantly image the thing I want to do and use on R just from a kiss.

12th Anniversary …

I really knocked our 12th out of the park, planned the whole thing – R was very appreciative. I was real proud of myself; I made commemorative t shirts, surprised R some clothes, and we spent all night at a piano bar singing our lungs out. We have a blast. Our room was great with a jacuzzi tube over looking town down below in the valley. One day I hope to have another trip like that with R. One of the thing I will always remember could be the sex (I still think of that), but is hanging outside waiting for our turn it go into the restaurant trying to take a good picture of ourselves. We laughed and laughed trying to get a good picture. Those have always been three of the most fun days that I remember with R.

Should I tell my wife my secret?

I almost texted R today the address to this blog but chickened out – maybe I will work on it some more and add some more posts. I have more note to go, but nervous about letting her read the details of would I have written. Reviews, fantasies, and stories – I worry about what she will say.

The busted blast …

For my birthday R was going to give me 3 days of all my dreams to come to fruition. The first night we went out to get something to eat and came back for some fun, later that night she was not feeling well and R spent the whole weekend inside with the flu – she had prepared so well and had me turned on so much. But, like life unexpected things pop up. I felt so bad for R, she wanted to give me a good time and I want to give her a good weekend too. Maybe we didn’t get to do all the physical thing my body wanted but I got to spend time with the woman I love and got everything my mind and spirit wanted. Thanks for giving me everything I ever dreamed of and making my dreams come true, I love you.

In the beginning ….

We couldn’t keep our hands off each other – kissing, touching, and exploring. Your hands on my chest, you lips on mine, your hips locked with mine. My hand moving up your waist and side as my tongue plays with yours. Feeling your breathing change as I touch you, you’re turned on and it makes me want you more. We would make each other so hot while we still kept our clothes on. She is my drug and I am addicted to her from the start. I know all of R body now and I still think about her and dream about R. I have the greatest wife in the world and love everything about her, I wish I could spend more time with R.

J’s Note ….

R this is for you, I hope I don’t offend you or make you upset I have been thinking of writing this blog for a long time – I finally got the balls to do it. Really I have been writing this in word for a while just working up my nerve to post them. My goal is to let you into my mind and hopefully turn you on as much as you turn me on. Some of these stories are tame some are more extreme - I love you – you are my wonderful wife that makes me feel good both mentally and especially physically.

Grooming …

What is that you prefer no trim, no hair or something in between? Personally I like to stay a little trimmed out for you when we are playing around and you go down on me I don’t want you to feel like there is hair and or other things in your way. I like me chest hair trimmed down too. When we lay holding our bodies together I can feel your breast pressed against my chest - it feels so good. A few times R has complete shaved smooth, yes kind or freaked me out a little with nothing there. It did get me free access to all of you parts as I would slide down your stomach and use my tongue on you. I really like it when you trim the side short and just leave a nice medium on the top. R’s body is amazing she always take care of yourself and you constantly turn me on.

A fantasy tried but never completed …

R and I once tried to accomplish sex at a scenic overlook before being rudely interrupted – oh well sure it was embarrassing, but that doesn’t keep me from being turned on when thinking about it. My dream goes more like us pulling into the overlook and just like years ago you had unzipped my pants and had been going down on me then you jumped over to my side as I let the chair back and next thing I not I was inside of you. Your eyes shut; you bit ½ of the left side of your lower lip, and let out a deep breath half moan. My hand goes up the inside of your shirt and massages your tits; you let out a breathy moan. Every time I enter you another bit of the lip, again and again. I left you shirt and suck and nipple and you moan again as your mouth goes open and your body shakes and jolts I know you are going and I feel so good that I was able to give you an orgasm. Then I feel my thighs tighten and my abs contract and I go. Pulsing over and over it feels so good. My body shakes and I am done. You lay down on me and we just catch our breath smile and kiss. We drive home totally satisfied and our head swirling with sexual relief.

Dating R

The date nights are a cherished time for me. We don’t really get much time to do it – the kids have this or that to go to or we have something planned to do a church, but about 3 or 4 times a year we do get to get away. After being on the road it feels like I have to get to know her all over again, one side of me loves this because it is new again, and another side is not to happy because it seems like we spin our wheels on the same topics never hitting the bedrock and getting our relationship better. R I hope that I am making your life for the better and that when we do just hang out together that you look forward to it and not just another moment that you have to remind me of the balls I dropped. Going out and doing nothing is actually fun now – it is not having to make a plan or no plan, it is just spending time with your hand in mine (see holding Hands). R is a great woman she has a crazy life holding down the fort at home while I am out “hunting and gathering” the best I can. She deserves an award for all the work she does, and that is why I like to date R. I love you honey hopefully we can figure out how to get a date soon.

Old and New …

It has been a long time since my R and I had a chance to just spend time together alone. I was due to leave on a business trip and I snuck her out for a day and when spend the day in town and stayed the night before leaving out. We had no big plans we just walked around the mall and other stores, ate out and generally just hung out. It was a great day time that we got to spend together and talk about us, sure we talked about the kids – the exciting times for them and our concerns that we have for them. Just talking about things she likes and dislikes. This is the newest phase of our life that I love. We have gotten past the awkward stages of not knowing what each other like / dislikes, but now we are talking about our life goals and goals for our children. I like watching the kids whether it is watching them cheer or just play around outside, but give me a couple hours with R and I am rejuvenated - It was great. One of my favorite things is surprise sex I always hope for it but I know I should not push or beg for it for fear of putting you out. We went back to the room and as we were winding down R asked me if I wanted to go for it – I did not need to be asked but it sure felt good – like you wanted me. The sex is always better when you feel wanted. We didn’t spend much time for R but that was for later. We went out to eat (I needed for fuel – hahaha) and when we got back I spend some time on her. I love taking my time a look and touch every part of R, when I touch her in places and watch the reaction of her body to my touch drives me crazy. Being apart I mess her so much I just have a hard time taking my time. I left her early in the morning to catch my flight; I hope she had a good time a felt great the rest of the week while I was out.

Holding Hand with R

Last week after a long trip apart R and I actually had the chance to drive on a trip back home almost alone. Two hours in the car, we were just chilling – talking - nothing much, but then she took my hand. It stirred me and aroused me. Her touch just on my hand was like after we had been married for a few years and she was rubbing up my inner thigh. It reminded me of those first touches that we experienced while dating. Experimenting and feeling each other, listening to your breathing changing as I touched you or feeling that I might explode as you touched me. Your touch was soft and your hand so delicate when you slightly intertwine an occasional finger between mine turned me on as our bodies laying naked with our legs wrapped around each other.

Frustrating?

What frustrates you? Do you get turned on by anything I do? When you get dressed up and in those jeans and high heeled shoes you have a walk that I can’t keep my eye off of. I love it when you walk you to me and hug me; you make me feel comfortable and strong. Your butt sways in just the right way – that is why I like to back you up – I have you back babe – mostly so I can stare at it …. Love you always and forever (is that too cheesey?) Love your mind and body - J

Remember that time?

Once R and I had to go to on a long car trip together all by ourselves – I know it is a rare thing anymore – HAHAHAHA. We were feeling extra frisky and she had reached over and was playing/massaging my crotch (see I can’t use it here – dang) and I would reach other and put my hand down her shirt. After miles of teasing and talking dirty I had her steer for me while I used my mouth on her tits (ok there – that took like forever to write). As my mouth touched her she gasped at to pleasure it gave her. I still think of that gasp and hear it in my mind as one of those sexually charged time we spent together just exploring ourselves.

What do I call it?

This is a private blog sometimes erotic I am going to talk about sex sometimes, I am going to talk about my feeling for her, and I am going to talk about my physical attraction to her. R is a very sexy woman. She is not the typical worldly female. As I go through this I want her to read it but my goal is not to make this dirty smut style writing. On the flip side this is not a scientific documentary. So when or if she ever reads this … R I hope I don’t offend you. That is not why I wrote this for you. I see this as an avenue to tell you what I want to at those times when I hold my breath. Is it Sex? Knocking boots? Doing the nasty? I just want you to feel comfortable. I know we are not prudes but I just want to make sure I get all my feelings out there to you. Many times I have picked up my phone to text you something nasty only to recoil from the thought of the kids seeing it. This will be my way to relieve those feelings and how much you mean to me. So really what do I call it? I will just have to let it go as it comes I guess.

Her Kiss

Lately I have really been enjoying her kisses, it might be that I have been on the road to much - I don’t know but I love kissing that woman. R has the softest lips when hers meets my lips it is very electrifying. When I lick her upper lip and her tongue touches mine it instantly turns me on. Her lower lip is soft and flexible I have a habit or softly biting and sucking on it. It is very hard to kiss her without getting a hard on but it just comes on. It is hard to kiss her in front of the kids, I have to walk away with my back turned. Her tongue always plays with mine, it is very exciting when we kiss real hard and our tongues are in each other mouth, I want to drive my face until we become one. One thing we have done in the past is I would put a piece of ice in my mouth and I would surprise her with a cold tongue. She can use her mouth as an instrument to reflect how she feels. If her lips are stiff and formal I like to try to tease her out. She always closes her eyes; I close my eyes about 30% of the time. I love to watch her up close as her lips reach out to meet mine and I can see the edge of her tongue reach out into my mouth. This gets me excited just writing this. It will not be long until I see her again. I love her, and her lips.

On the road

I have multiple trips that take me away from R, she is a very dynamic woman. She takes care of the kids all by herself, she teaches them, and cleans up after them. It is tough on her, and when I am away all I think about is her. I bet that really makes her feel good. Exhausted from her life and here I come wanting nothing but to hump her leg. I know she works hard she is ultra busy with her duties and she can really keep all those duties/jobs juggling in the air. I am really proud of all the abilities that she can do. I hope that she does not think I am using my job to run out, but I hope she know the only reason I am on the road is to support us and her. She is really a saint, my biggest challenge is to figure out how to make her feel relax and to let to enjoy life. Hopefully I can give her a few days in the near future for just her.

The Mission .....

I have a woman in my life; her name is “R” for now.  She is the best woman I have ever met, we are married in 1996 and have had tough time a great times.  Even though we have been married for many years I still have a hard time expressing myself to her.  So, I thought I would start a blog for her to read, people might find this and make crazy comments but this will be a clearing house for my inner most feelings.  Current I do not know if I will share this with her, I know it sounds crazy.  I plan to write about my feelings for her, my desires, and my fantasies.  Some of this will be touching, some of it will probably gross her out some would make her upset but I really want to share this with her and to let her know how much I enjoy her physically and mentally.  I plan to keep this a totally private thing with no names and only details that would be totally obscure to others.