What do I call it?

This is a private blog sometimes erotic I am going to talk about sex sometimes, I am going to talk about my feeling for her, and I am going to talk about my physical attraction to her. R is a very sexy woman. She is not the typical worldly female. As I go through this I want her to read it but my goal is not to make this dirty smut style writing. On the flip side this is not a scientific documentary. So when or if she ever reads this … R I hope I don’t offend you. That is not why I wrote this for you. I see this as an avenue to tell you what I want to at those times when I hold my breath. Is it Sex? Knocking boots? Doing the nasty? I just want you to feel comfortable. I know we are not prudes but I just want to make sure I get all my feelings out there to you. Many times I have picked up my phone to text you something nasty only to recoil from the thought of the kids seeing it. This will be my way to relieve those feelings and how much you mean to me. So really what do I call it? I will just have to let it go as it comes I guess.